Dear Diary, I'm large-minded

I met someone last week, a writing someone, and she chuckled when I mentioned that I had a blog and said something like "oh, a diary that you let other people read?" and I wanted to punch her in the face. Because though I may drop in a clever little link once in a while referring to personal stuff, there are plenty of personal things going down that I don't mention because a girl can't give it all up in 11 point font.

There are exceptions, such as some former housemates.

This afternoon I took some time for myself and, instead of reading some tough lit, perused some blogs. Certain bloggers linked to others and I stumbled upon an entire group of women bloggers who were writing about personal subjects- notably, their infertility problems. As I read their stories, I really felt for them. Someone close to me is dealing with an unforeseen pregnancy, one that is kind of wreaking havoc on many people and changing the ways these people think about their futures. It doesn't quite seem fair that so many women are hoping for babies every moment of every day and somewhere far away, unwanted babies are conceived with ease.

One of the bloggers wrote about a time when she was a little lost and mentioned playing a game with her dictionary. She called it "magpies" and the rule is to sort of think deeply or meditate about a question or subject with a dictionary in hand. At some point, she opens the dictionary to where it feels natural and allows her finger to move to a spot on the page. Then she opens her eyes. Her story about what she found is pretty cool- you can read about it here.

I've been having a lot of trouble sleeping lately and (as I've mentioned before) have some pretty out-of-control circles going on under my eyes. I know that it's a result of having lots of stuff going on upstairs, so tonight I thought I'd try this dictionary game. Without going into too much detail, I'll tell you that I was thinking about what I'm supposed to be doing right now (see: creatively, as a person, in my future, etc.) and I smiled when I opened my eyes and saw my answer: large-minded.

At least I'm consistent with my inability to specify.

I'd be curious to know if any of you try this and what you fall upon... feel free to share if you do.


Anonymous said...

I just meditated on the question "What should i do about my current situation?"

my finger ended up on the word ride ... more specifically, on we'll just have to let the matter ride / to let things ride for a while.

En francais je suis tombee sur "lisible" ... but i'm not quite sure how that could apply.

I guess my brain's still mainly english-speaking!

PS - great post, i love the idea!

Hortense said...

LMAO Oh Wendy (Baby girl).
Still laughing now
Thanks for the laughs and reminders