12.20.2011

"Here we are, as in olden days..."

Our tree this year.
The saddest version of "Have yourself a merry little Christmas" was sung by Bert in Christmas Eve on Sesame Street. We used to watch this every year and for some reason this song always made me super-sad. Maybe that's because Bert is kind of sad. You get the feeling he doesn't do so well socially. He's the Mitchell to Modern Family's Cam. A little uptight, a little nervous, but underneath, a hopeful little heart.

2007 was the year that I moved home from Paris and was very, very sad. I was still sad at Christmas and I remember driving around my home town alone one night, looking at Christmas lights and singing that song to myself as I drove. Hearing my little voice singing that song in the way Bert does... well, I drove around with tears rolling down my cheeks. I made MYSELF cry, it was that sad.

I remember the tough Christmas that winter and I'm so grateful I made it out ok. If you're having a tough Christmas yourself this year, hang in there. It's amazing how things can turn around.

5 comments:

invitingjoy said...

I love that you put the nativity under the tree. Probably we haven't done it that way because then Jesus' birth would turn into "Jerusalem: Attack of the Giant Kitteh," but it really does look lovely. Merry Christmas, my bloggy friend!

Jen said...

Oh, don't get me wrong. That looked nice for about 5 minutes and now it's a massacre every morning. ;) xo!

KYGrace said...

This was good for me to read, Jen - I think it described my Christmas Eve this year. I did survive to enjoy Christmas Day. Hope lives on!

Anonymous said...

Hi Jen, I'm a producer for BBC Radio 4 - and we make a series called Soul Music that features those pieces of music that never fail to move us. For Christmas Eve I'm making one on Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas and i'd love to talk to you about this addition to your blog, you expressed the bitter sweetnes of this song so well. To check I'm not a crank if you search
BBC Radio 4 Soul Music, you'll find all details about it.
If you'd be kind enough to write to me at my work address I'd love to hear from you.
lucy.lunt@bbc.co.uk Thanks you

Anonymous said...

BBC Radio 4 Soul Music
Dear Jen, I'm making a programme about this song and would love to talk to you about it, you describe the bittersweet nature of it so well.
So you know I'm not a crank if you type the title at the top into a search engine you'll find more details.
Please can you write to me at my work address lucy.lunt@bbc.co.uk
I'd love to hear from you.
Many thanks
Lucy