4.12.2016

A Story B4 Bed

Noah prefers when I'm the one reading books before bed but in a few weeks I'll be out for a while. I'll be in the hospital for about a week when we do the surgery and then I really am not sure what state I'm in once I come home. (Can you read stories in the evening or do the STAPLES IN YOUR HEAD prevent you? Ugh.)



So I found an app called A Story B4 Bed that lets you tape yourself reading a book on the iPad. I recorded a few tonight and will keep going tomorrow. 

I haven't let myself connect too much with the idea that surgery will be dangerous and something could go wrong. I have to wean Aaron this week because of the anti-seizure meds they put me on and the steroids I will be on in a few days. I want to make my guys feel connected to their mom even if I'm in the hospital or really drugged for a while, so I'll get as many books recorded and lots of snuggles to remember.

I feel optimistic overall but every 10 minutes I remember the key words: BRAIN TUMOR. I worry I may be seeming into myself or over dramatic on Facebook but guess what- THERE'S A BRAIN TUMOR. No one gives a shit how I'm talking. Time to be kind with myself.

3 comments:

Erica said...

Do what you have to do and say what you have to say. We're all rooting for you! (no one is thinking, "damn will she shut up about that stupid brain tumor already?!", don't you worry!)

xoxoxoxoxo

Kate Gomberg said...

You are really kicking this situation's ass right now. I know it may not feel like it in private sometimes but you are totally Jen: warrior princess.

Kate Gomberg said...

You are really kicking this situation's ass right now. I know it may not feel like it in private sometimes but you are totally Jen: warrior princess.