Meta stuff

What's interesting about writing about this whole experience is the order of what I feel I can write about. By far, I've written the most about surgery and my hospital stay so far. 

I haven't touched pre-surgery life, notably diagnosis and the two weeks between that MRI and surgery. I can barely look at my notes on this stuff without crying. That was the scariest part, I guess. When we were horrified by what was happening and before we had the tumor out. 

I've written a little about recovery, but it's all things that happened at least a week post-op. Notes about those first days home also make me cry.

In my pre-tumor life I used to listen to emo music while I wrote. No joke, I mostly now listen to Jay-Z. 

Probably Jay-Z helps me steel parts of myself to digest and write this story without falling apart in the coffee shop. (This is very meta to close read myself like I'm my own coaching client! ;))


Megan Gray said...

Hi Jen,

I just wanted to raise my hand and say I'm here, reading along as you write. I found you a few months before your surgery, and have been here checking on you ever since. I'm just so proud of you, and I just really like reading your words.

Until next time,


Amber Marlow said...

Jay-Z has so many great lines for when you're feeling like you need to be victorious.

"Difficult takes a day, impossible takes a week." C'mon.

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